Saturday, August 30, 2008
Nothing to report
So yep, nothing of note to report over the last few days which is nice for me! Shannon back home after four days away so that's great. He is having Monday off to come to the 19 week morphology scan. Am looking forward to it, and hoping everything looks normal. Also looking forward to getting some more pics of bub.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Out of the mouth of... Laci
The other night Laci was drawing a picture and she said
"okay so I am drawing daddy, there is his head and there is his belly, now does daddy have a big or small penis?"
I told her she should go ask him (he was in the shower) he was a little surprised when she walked in and said
"daddy do you have a small penis?"
She came back out and she said
"Daddy said we don't talk about the size of his penis, so I am just going to draw his heart in his chest instead"
Oh I still giggle when I think about it :)
"okay so I am drawing daddy, there is his head and there is his belly, now does daddy have a big or small penis?"
I told her she should go ask him (he was in the shower) he was a little surprised when she walked in and said
"daddy do you have a small penis?"
She came back out and she said
"Daddy said we don't talk about the size of his penis, so I am just going to draw his heart in his chest instead"
Oh I still giggle when I think about it :)
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Week 18 ramblings
So lets see whats been hyappening? Yesterday I had my 18 week appt with ob. All is going well with me, BP stable, no protein in urine. She couldn't find bubs heartbeat on doppler so did a quick scan and all was good. The only thing she said was that she said he was all squashed up at the bottom of my uterus and in breech position. She said if he is still in that position for next weeks morphology scan that we may have diffculties getting the pictures we need. Don't know how to get hime to move :) I have been feeling the kicks very low all day so I think he is probably quite comfy down there :)
Yesterday I also had my first accupuncture appointment and will have another tomorrow and take it from there. I also had a follow-up session with the psychologist today and now not going back for 2 weeks. We worked on some relaxation exercises today, a good reminder, I have done this alot in the past but for some reason it had just been pushed aside.
Am pretty exhausted tonight.. I also got a call about my insurance claim and it looks like it may not happen if they prove that this was a pre exsisting condition. I don't think it is, I only had it for that short time in Laci's pregnancy and then all returned to normal. I don't really think that is pre-existing? Have to get more paperwork from ob and take from there. If this doesn't get approved, I guess I will just have to take my maternity leave early.
Yesterday I also had my first accupuncture appointment and will have another tomorrow and take it from there. I also had a follow-up session with the psychologist today and now not going back for 2 weeks. We worked on some relaxation exercises today, a good reminder, I have done this alot in the past but for some reason it had just been pushed aside.
Am pretty exhausted tonight.. I also got a call about my insurance claim and it looks like it may not happen if they prove that this was a pre exsisting condition. I don't think it is, I only had it for that short time in Laci's pregnancy and then all returned to normal. I don't really think that is pre-existing? Have to get more paperwork from ob and take from there. If this doesn't get approved, I guess I will just have to take my maternity leave early.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
My pregnancy issues summary
OK, so I got to thinking that not everyone that reads my blog knows my history when it comes to babies and what we are in for and why.. So I thought I should do a summary, will try to make it brief lol
After 4 longs years TTC we finally fell pregnant in 2003 after injections and insemination (IUI) we were estactic. I have essential hypertension, so basically that means that I have high blood pressure all the time and take medication all the time and have done since I was 19 (1995). My sister also has it and my mother did as did/does most of my mothers 6 siblings. No one had ever had a premature baby but being a nurse and especially one that had worked in NICU/SCN I figured our baby would most likely come a little early. By early though I was thinking like 34 weeks! I also knew there was a possibility of havnig to have a caesarean but was still hopeful for a natural delivery.
I developed hyperemisis (severe morning sickness) from very early on so that was my main concern I guess. I was hospitalised for dehydration a few times and lost lots of weight. My blood pressure (BP) started to rise at 8 weeks and my medication was increased. I stopped worked at 13 weeks as was just too sick with the vomiting. My BP continued to increase steadily. At 20 weeks we had our big scan and were so excited to be having a girl. We were told she was measuring a week behind but that was not unusual. We gave it no more thought. At 24 weeks my ob suggested we have another scan just to check things, in hindsite, he was worried about size after doing an examination on me. I went for the scan and the news was terrible :( At 24 weeks Piper was measuring at approx 21-22 week size. I was transferred to RPA in sydney were we were given the full news. I had placenta insufficiency and Piper had severe growth restriction and was unlikely to make it to a viable size. They were unsure whether the growth and placenta issues were solely from the BP issues or some other underlying condition or clotting disorder.
I was given the option to induce and end the pregnancy or be monitored in hospital to see if she would get to a viable size but was told this was unlikely. They wanted her to be at least 500grams.
So christmas day and news years were spent in hospital, crying and hoping and really being very traumatised as each time I hadn't felt her move we thought that ment she had died inutero which they said was the most likely expected outcome.
At 26 weeks 2 days I had a scan that showed that she had reached the goal of estimated weight of 500 grams but that the placenta was on its last legs :( We were offered the choice on what to do now. We chose to go ahead and give her a chance. The neonatologist gave us only a 20% chance of survival due to her size and a 50% chance of major disability :(
At 26 weeks 3 days I had a classical caesarean. A very traumatic experience as they weren't sure if she would survive the trauma of birth. She did. She weighed a tiny 466 grams.
Piper was ventilated and was pretty stable for 10 days, was gaining weight and taking my breast milk into a tube. She was still ventilated which was to be expected. At day 10 she started to deteriote, by day 14 there was no return :( One lung had fully collapsed and the other partially. We chose to hold her for the first and last time and she passed away in my arms.
Please understand this may all sound not very emotional, but as a nurse I guess it is quite easy for me to write the facts like it was someone else and remain quite detached..
During my pregnancy with Piper my sister had her second daughter at 32 weeks and was very very unwell with eclampsia, her girl made it and my sister wil be having no more :(
Next pregnancy came along much more quickly than we ever dreamed. Piper had died in Jan and by July thanks to more fertility drugs I was pregnant again.
I had had so many blood tests to see if I had any underlying issues that may have caused the placenta problem but nothing was ever found. It was decided that perhaps the problem had been caused by my BP or maybe it was just 'unlucky' I off course was hoping for the latter but was terrified and truly thought my body had failed me and that I was a failure as I couldn't even nurture my unborn baby :(
obviously this was a very very stressful pregnancy, every day seemed like an eternity. I again developed hyperemises but thankfully it stopped at 11 weeks and not the whole pregnancy this time. My blood pressure remained stable until an amazing 28 weeks when my medication was increased. I was scanned regularly and our second daughter Laci, surpassed Pipers size well and truly by 23 weeks gestation. After 30 weeks I started getting large amounts of protein in my urine and it was thought that pre eclampsia was on its way again. I had a growth scan at 29 weeks then again at 31 weeks and the difference in weight was only an estimated 15 grams. So basically she had stopped growing. the placenta was still okay but they thought it was only a matter of time. So at 31 weeks 5 days Laci was delivered by standard caesarean weighing 1638 grams. She did amazingly well, on CPAP for only a couple of days and home fully breastfeeding at equivilant of 35 weeks 3 days.
We decided to take a break from TTC and enjoy our girl..
After a year of fertility treatments including inseminations I finally fell pregnant again and it didn't progress :( Was a blighted ovum and I had a D and C at 8.5 weeks.
Then it was onto IVF, on our 2nd and last attempt (I have crappy ovaries and we were exhausted) I fell pregnant.
So here we are. 18 weeks tomorrow. My blood pressure is still good, in fact I am on half my normal dose of medication I take when not pregnant. This is my 'easy time'. Oh yeah I also hyperemisis again and thankfully it left by 13 weeks. I also have the symphysis pubis thing both times, with Piper only mild from about 20 weeks. With Laci from 18 weeks and not really able to walk from 28 weeks and this time, well yeah off work since 16 weeks, not thinking about whats to come with the pelvis at this stage! I have decided it doesn't affect baby and it causes no long term harm to me, so I am just going to deal with it and ride it out. Only 4 more months max anyhow right?
So basically the consensus from all specialised obstetrician is that the same thing will happen again with this pregnancy, it is just a matter of when. My BP will rise, the protein will increase in my urine and the growth will stop on bub. I will have plenty of bloods, BP checks, urine checks, CTG's, scans etc to watch for this closely. From 25 weeks I am on weekly ob appointments. 36 weeks is the latest I can go to due to the condition of my uterus but my ob and I know that that is a dream. She has made all my appointment up till 32 weeks. 32 weeks is the 1st December. So I am hoping and praying we will be having a December baby and no earlier. I will be having steroids at 27 weeks so if things suddenly changed quickly with me that bub could be out.
I can have a baby here in Cairns at 28 weeks as long as bub weighs over 1kg and no other issues such as growth restriction etc if not it will be Townsville.
Anything over 30 weeks would be awesome but obviously the longer the better. I am fantasising about 33 weeks :)
OH yeah and ob is tying my tubes during the caesarean, we are NOT doing this again.
So if you stuck to this for this long, hope it all made sense. Please please leave me a message if you had any other questions. But I figure as things get closer my ramblings will probably make more sense if you know why I am going on about certain things.
After 4 longs years TTC we finally fell pregnant in 2003 after injections and insemination (IUI) we were estactic. I have essential hypertension, so basically that means that I have high blood pressure all the time and take medication all the time and have done since I was 19 (1995). My sister also has it and my mother did as did/does most of my mothers 6 siblings. No one had ever had a premature baby but being a nurse and especially one that had worked in NICU/SCN I figured our baby would most likely come a little early. By early though I was thinking like 34 weeks! I also knew there was a possibility of havnig to have a caesarean but was still hopeful for a natural delivery.
I developed hyperemisis (severe morning sickness) from very early on so that was my main concern I guess. I was hospitalised for dehydration a few times and lost lots of weight. My blood pressure (BP) started to rise at 8 weeks and my medication was increased. I stopped worked at 13 weeks as was just too sick with the vomiting. My BP continued to increase steadily. At 20 weeks we had our big scan and were so excited to be having a girl. We were told she was measuring a week behind but that was not unusual. We gave it no more thought. At 24 weeks my ob suggested we have another scan just to check things, in hindsite, he was worried about size after doing an examination on me. I went for the scan and the news was terrible :( At 24 weeks Piper was measuring at approx 21-22 week size. I was transferred to RPA in sydney were we were given the full news. I had placenta insufficiency and Piper had severe growth restriction and was unlikely to make it to a viable size. They were unsure whether the growth and placenta issues were solely from the BP issues or some other underlying condition or clotting disorder.
I was given the option to induce and end the pregnancy or be monitored in hospital to see if she would get to a viable size but was told this was unlikely. They wanted her to be at least 500grams.
So christmas day and news years were spent in hospital, crying and hoping and really being very traumatised as each time I hadn't felt her move we thought that ment she had died inutero which they said was the most likely expected outcome.
At 26 weeks 2 days I had a scan that showed that she had reached the goal of estimated weight of 500 grams but that the placenta was on its last legs :( We were offered the choice on what to do now. We chose to go ahead and give her a chance. The neonatologist gave us only a 20% chance of survival due to her size and a 50% chance of major disability :(
At 26 weeks 3 days I had a classical caesarean. A very traumatic experience as they weren't sure if she would survive the trauma of birth. She did. She weighed a tiny 466 grams.
Piper was ventilated and was pretty stable for 10 days, was gaining weight and taking my breast milk into a tube. She was still ventilated which was to be expected. At day 10 she started to deteriote, by day 14 there was no return :( One lung had fully collapsed and the other partially. We chose to hold her for the first and last time and she passed away in my arms.
Please understand this may all sound not very emotional, but as a nurse I guess it is quite easy for me to write the facts like it was someone else and remain quite detached..
During my pregnancy with Piper my sister had her second daughter at 32 weeks and was very very unwell with eclampsia, her girl made it and my sister wil be having no more :(
Next pregnancy came along much more quickly than we ever dreamed. Piper had died in Jan and by July thanks to more fertility drugs I was pregnant again.
I had had so many blood tests to see if I had any underlying issues that may have caused the placenta problem but nothing was ever found. It was decided that perhaps the problem had been caused by my BP or maybe it was just 'unlucky' I off course was hoping for the latter but was terrified and truly thought my body had failed me and that I was a failure as I couldn't even nurture my unborn baby :(
obviously this was a very very stressful pregnancy, every day seemed like an eternity. I again developed hyperemises but thankfully it stopped at 11 weeks and not the whole pregnancy this time. My blood pressure remained stable until an amazing 28 weeks when my medication was increased. I was scanned regularly and our second daughter Laci, surpassed Pipers size well and truly by 23 weeks gestation. After 30 weeks I started getting large amounts of protein in my urine and it was thought that pre eclampsia was on its way again. I had a growth scan at 29 weeks then again at 31 weeks and the difference in weight was only an estimated 15 grams. So basically she had stopped growing. the placenta was still okay but they thought it was only a matter of time. So at 31 weeks 5 days Laci was delivered by standard caesarean weighing 1638 grams. She did amazingly well, on CPAP for only a couple of days and home fully breastfeeding at equivilant of 35 weeks 3 days.
We decided to take a break from TTC and enjoy our girl..
After a year of fertility treatments including inseminations I finally fell pregnant again and it didn't progress :( Was a blighted ovum and I had a D and C at 8.5 weeks.
Then it was onto IVF, on our 2nd and last attempt (I have crappy ovaries and we were exhausted) I fell pregnant.
So here we are. 18 weeks tomorrow. My blood pressure is still good, in fact I am on half my normal dose of medication I take when not pregnant. This is my 'easy time'. Oh yeah I also hyperemisis again and thankfully it left by 13 weeks. I also have the symphysis pubis thing both times, with Piper only mild from about 20 weeks. With Laci from 18 weeks and not really able to walk from 28 weeks and this time, well yeah off work since 16 weeks, not thinking about whats to come with the pelvis at this stage! I have decided it doesn't affect baby and it causes no long term harm to me, so I am just going to deal with it and ride it out. Only 4 more months max anyhow right?
So basically the consensus from all specialised obstetrician is that the same thing will happen again with this pregnancy, it is just a matter of when. My BP will rise, the protein will increase in my urine and the growth will stop on bub. I will have plenty of bloods, BP checks, urine checks, CTG's, scans etc to watch for this closely. From 25 weeks I am on weekly ob appointments. 36 weeks is the latest I can go to due to the condition of my uterus but my ob and I know that that is a dream. She has made all my appointment up till 32 weeks. 32 weeks is the 1st December. So I am hoping and praying we will be having a December baby and no earlier. I will be having steroids at 27 weeks so if things suddenly changed quickly with me that bub could be out.
I can have a baby here in Cairns at 28 weeks as long as bub weighs over 1kg and no other issues such as growth restriction etc if not it will be Townsville.
Anything over 30 weeks would be awesome but obviously the longer the better. I am fantasising about 33 weeks :)
OH yeah and ob is tying my tubes during the caesarean, we are NOT doing this again.
So if you stuck to this for this long, hope it all made sense. Please please leave me a message if you had any other questions. But I figure as things get closer my ramblings will probably make more sense if you know why I am going on about certain things.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Plodding along
Not much to report, which is how I like it :) My belly feels like it is growing by the minute and bubba boy is very very active, I love laying and watching my belly move around :)
Laci had her first swimming lesson this morning, she only had water confidence stuff when she was a baby as after that they stopped having lessons in Weipa when the instructor left. She is very confident in the water maybe a little over confident so it is definately time to learn the moves! Its going to take a while little miss distracto!
Laci had her first swimming lesson this morning, she only had water confidence stuff when she was a baby as after that they stopped having lessons in Weipa when the instructor left. She is very confident in the water maybe a little over confident so it is definately time to learn the moves! Its going to take a while little miss distracto!
Thursday, August 21, 2008
My boy knows how to kick
Boy oh boy bubba boy must be in a weird position today because all he has done is kick my cervix, not real pleasant!
Starting to look forward to the 19 week scan, not long to go, just want that reassurance that all is looking okay and it would be nice to see some boy bits lol
Quiet day again today, had a good talk with my boss, thankfully she was wonderful about me having to finish up work so early.
Shannon home tomorrow night. YAY.
Starting to look forward to the 19 week scan, not long to go, just want that reassurance that all is looking okay and it would be nice to see some boy bits lol
Quiet day again today, had a good talk with my boss, thankfully she was wonderful about me having to finish up work so early.
Shannon home tomorrow night. YAY.
The belly
I think its growing, and maybe am starting to look pregnant now? I certainly know I am, the wiggling that goes on in there at night especially!
Excuse the bed hair and tired face (bad sleep last night)..
So what's the verdict if you saw me down the street would you think I was pregnant (ne honest now!)
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Another day
Well today was a quiet day at home but didn't drag which was nice. I kept myself occupied somehow, I think it also helped that the pain was less being the day after my massage. It sucks with Shannon being away though, two nights is fine, three nights is harder and four or more nights is no fun at all. Tonight is night 3 of 4. Then he will be home for 4 nights and gone for another 3.
Today I managed to lodge all the forms for the income protection insurance claim, hoping hoping it gets approved otherwise the $$ situation is going to be stressful. It will take a couple of weeks to find out.
I did decided today though that the $ just had to stretch to a fortnightly house cleaner, just someone to vaccumn and mop the floors and do the bathrooms, I just can't do it and with Shannon working such long hours it not fair to get him to do more, he already does so much when he is home, waits on me hand and foot and does everything with Laci. I am just not capable of the housework now :( And you know I actually don't mind doing housework, but not in pain! I guess the money I am saving on petrol (and boy thats alot) will counteract that? :)
Today I managed to lodge all the forms for the income protection insurance claim, hoping hoping it gets approved otherwise the $$ situation is going to be stressful. It will take a couple of weeks to find out.
I did decided today though that the $ just had to stretch to a fortnightly house cleaner, just someone to vaccumn and mop the floors and do the bathrooms, I just can't do it and with Shannon working such long hours it not fair to get him to do more, he already does so much when he is home, waits on me hand and foot and does everything with Laci. I am just not capable of the housework now :( And you know I actually don't mind doing housework, but not in pain! I guess the money I am saving on petrol (and boy thats alot) will counteract that? :)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
A good day
After not a good nights sleep (in alot of pain and then Laci woke 3 times which never happens) I had a good day. It started with my first appointment with a psychologist. It went well, lots of crying but still well. I have one strategy to try for the next week and then when I see her again we will build on it. So glad I took the plunge.
After that I grapped a couple of things for Laci at the clothing sale at Kmart and treated myself to a liesurly macca's lunch.
Then I headed off for my massage. Not the relaxation type the torture type lol. She is great and really gets into the pressure points. I know I will be thankful for the visit tomorrow when the relief comes. I have decided to go weekly for a while and see how that helps.
I also booked in an acupuncture appointment for next week at a lady I have heard good god things about. Hoping it will help with the 'calmness' I am trying to acheive. It certainly did with the last IVF, so its worth giving it a shot I think.
Tomorrow will need to be a quiet day, hoping it will be warm enough for me to get in the pool as last 2 days have been unusually cool for here.
Going to browse the net and eat some choccy then an early night :)
After that I grapped a couple of things for Laci at the clothing sale at Kmart and treated myself to a liesurly macca's lunch.
Then I headed off for my massage. Not the relaxation type the torture type lol. She is great and really gets into the pressure points. I know I will be thankful for the visit tomorrow when the relief comes. I have decided to go weekly for a while and see how that helps.
I also booked in an acupuncture appointment for next week at a lady I have heard good god things about. Hoping it will help with the 'calmness' I am trying to acheive. It certainly did with the last IVF, so its worth giving it a shot I think.
Tomorrow will need to be a quiet day, hoping it will be warm enough for me to get in the pool as last 2 days have been unusually cool for here.
Going to browse the net and eat some choccy then an early night :)
Monday, August 18, 2008
Bored
Okay so this laying around is pretty boring. Promised myself I would take it easy after doing too much over the weekend, but I am going coo-coo! I am going to get out Laci's scrapbook album this week I think and at least do something a little constructive. I think it is worse because Shannon is away all week. Have first counselling appointment tomorrow so that will kill some time lol.
At least its not long till I go pick up my busy girl from daycare :)
At least its not long till I go pick up my busy girl from daycare :)
Thanks for the comments
Thanks for the comments and suggestions it is nice to know I am not talking to myself. You were on the pulse too with the ideas but I think I probably have them covered anyhow, lets see :)
Hot water bottles: Thanks so much for the offer but I have a couple of wheat bags that I use constantly, I find them very soothing, though I was told cold is probably better but I just find the warmth so much nicer.
Massage: Yes I actually have found a great massuese. I have been twice now and am booked in again in a week. I was planning fortnightly but am starting to think weekly will soon be needed. She is great and I am finding good relief especially for the leg/nerve pain
Physio: Yep been there, I didn't find it helped too much last time either, but went along, have some 'core strengthening' exercises that I am doing and also a friend is sending me her support belt.
Exercise: Yeah it probably sounded like I am doing nothing but I am swimming most days and also walk Laci to daycare (although slowly) will continue this as long as I can get up and down our stairs. Its the extended outings that are doing me in.
Looking like a long week this week with Shannon away now till Friday night, thank goodness for the girly to keep me entertained in the mornings and afternoons :)
Hot water bottles: Thanks so much for the offer but I have a couple of wheat bags that I use constantly, I find them very soothing, though I was told cold is probably better but I just find the warmth so much nicer.
Massage: Yes I actually have found a great massuese. I have been twice now and am booked in again in a week. I was planning fortnightly but am starting to think weekly will soon be needed. She is great and I am finding good relief especially for the leg/nerve pain
Physio: Yep been there, I didn't find it helped too much last time either, but went along, have some 'core strengthening' exercises that I am doing and also a friend is sending me her support belt.
Exercise: Yeah it probably sounded like I am doing nothing but I am swimming most days and also walk Laci to daycare (although slowly) will continue this as long as I can get up and down our stairs. Its the extended outings that are doing me in.
Looking like a long week this week with Shannon away now till Friday night, thank goodness for the girly to keep me entertained in the mornings and afternoons :)
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Lounge Lizard
Yep that's me! Looks like the lounge is going to be my regular position for quite some months now. A wonderful friend gave us her old laptop when she upgraded and Shannon set me up last night with wireless broadband on it. I was finding it way too painful to sit upright on the computer chair, so now I can laze here and browse and update, albeit the typing is slow in this postion :)
So, what's new, well besides the pain in my pelvis, my legs, my lower back and the butt lol I now have a new pain on the front upper right hand side of my body, above the baby and hurts with movement, I am assuming it is a pulled muscle from my extreme difficulties at times moving. Yesterday after a quiet week I decided to venture out briefly to the shops to meet a friend who was down from Weipa, I hardly did anything but really suffered last night and today. In all honesty, it is getting me down, I was even eyeing off one of those granny puch thingys with the seat today and a wheelchair for outings even appeals :( I can't believe I am only 17 weeks tomorrow, so early to be in so much pain but also great that for me I am halfway I would say!
Shannon is away from 5am Monday morning till Friday afternoon this week. I expect it will be a long week for me. I am having my first psychologist appointment on Tuesday though, so hopefully that will be good for me.
I expect now that I am pretty much housebound and have this laptop that updates will be more frequent though I can't promise they will too interesting.. I am finding it great just to get it out though.
But if you are out there reading me, please please comment so I know I am not just talking to myself, this is going to be a long road and I think I am going to need more support as the weeks tick by.
So, what's new, well besides the pain in my pelvis, my legs, my lower back and the butt lol I now have a new pain on the front upper right hand side of my body, above the baby and hurts with movement, I am assuming it is a pulled muscle from my extreme difficulties at times moving. Yesterday after a quiet week I decided to venture out briefly to the shops to meet a friend who was down from Weipa, I hardly did anything but really suffered last night and today. In all honesty, it is getting me down, I was even eyeing off one of those granny puch thingys with the seat today and a wheelchair for outings even appeals :( I can't believe I am only 17 weeks tomorrow, so early to be in so much pain but also great that for me I am halfway I would say!
Shannon is away from 5am Monday morning till Friday afternoon this week. I expect it will be a long week for me. I am having my first psychologist appointment on Tuesday though, so hopefully that will be good for me.
I expect now that I am pretty much housebound and have this laptop that updates will be more frequent though I can't promise they will too interesting.. I am finding it great just to get it out though.
But if you are out there reading me, please please comment so I know I am not just talking to myself, this is going to be a long road and I think I am going to need more support as the weeks tick by.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Girly day
Yep its Friday, or as Laci put's it "Girly day". The day has started off pretty slow, we are still in pj's. Laci has been watching cartoons and I have been lazing in bed. I think we will venture down to the pool shortly before the wind gets up and allow Laci to burn off some of that energy cause I really don't think I could manage much else.
Shannon away on day trip to Weipa for work today, left at 5am and won't be home till about 9.30pm, a long day for sure. He is away next week Mon-Fri and the following week Tues-Friday, so I will be gald when thats over. At least with al the travel he gets a travel allowance which will help the $$ situation a little. Shame it takes up to 5 weeks to come through.
Well better get to this girly day
Shannon away on day trip to Weipa for work today, left at 5am and won't be home till about 9.30pm, a long day for sure. He is away next week Mon-Fri and the following week Tues-Friday, so I will be gald when thats over. At least with al the travel he gets a travel allowance which will help the $$ situation a little. Shame it takes up to 5 weeks to come through.
Well better get to this girly day
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Our wedding anniversary
Today is 9 years since we married and 12 years since our first kiss :) I am so glad I found my wonderful hubby. He is stopping at the shops on the way home to pick up ingredients for 'something special' for dinner, he loves cooking, but with working and travelling for work, we don't get the chance to eat anything special very often. I just try and get those veges in and a little variety.
Yesterday I had a pretty easy morning so figured I could probably venture to grab a few groceries, by no means a full shop, only 5 bags or so. I also had to pick up a gift for my neices birthday so it could be posted, but that shop is right next to woolworths so figured I would be fine. Guess not! Oh my, I really can't do much! The drive hurt, walking arond the shops was agony! Pushing the trolley was torture..okay you get the picture. I got to the car and burst into tears :( For someone who isn't a cryer I seem to be doing a good job of showing otherwise, I also sobbed uncontrollably on Monday at my massage, ther massuse is so lovely and she knows my history..
So am thinking it is probably a good idea that A. I am not working at the moment and B. I have made my first appointment to see a pyschologist that is affiliated with my ob. My first apppointment is next Tuesday.
Today I decided I needed to take it super easy. Not much happening here at all. Won't be long and we should have the laptop a friend gave us set up on wireless so can be online when laying on side because even sitting here upright in chair is not comfy..
Okay so enough moaning for now. Bubba boy is getting stronger in there now, not so much rolling more boots, am loving it and I forgot how strong it will get yet.
Yesterday I had a pretty easy morning so figured I could probably venture to grab a few groceries, by no means a full shop, only 5 bags or so. I also had to pick up a gift for my neices birthday so it could be posted, but that shop is right next to woolworths so figured I would be fine. Guess not! Oh my, I really can't do much! The drive hurt, walking arond the shops was agony! Pushing the trolley was torture..okay you get the picture. I got to the car and burst into tears :( For someone who isn't a cryer I seem to be doing a good job of showing otherwise, I also sobbed uncontrollably on Monday at my massage, ther massuse is so lovely and she knows my history..
So am thinking it is probably a good idea that A. I am not working at the moment and B. I have made my first appointment to see a pyschologist that is affiliated with my ob. My first apppointment is next Tuesday.
Today I decided I needed to take it super easy. Not much happening here at all. Won't be long and we should have the laptop a friend gave us set up on wireless so can be online when laying on side because even sitting here upright in chair is not comfy..
Okay so enough moaning for now. Bubba boy is getting stronger in there now, not so much rolling more boots, am loving it and I forgot how strong it will get yet.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Calmness returns
So yesterdays headache soon turned into a migraine, spoke to ob and we decided the high bp was prob from the headache so I took some panadiene and slept for 2.5 hours, when I woke my head was improving and BP back to normal.
So its back to the daily grind with SPD at home. We are keeping Laci in daycare on her 4 days a week at this stage as I really can't do much and it wouldn't be fair to keep her at home with me not being able to do much. She is enjoying daycare and gets to burn off all that energy.
Tomorrow is 12 years since Shannon and I had our first kiss and 9 years since we married :) Not sure whether we will do something tomorrow night or wait till weekend. Wow, where has the time gone? I also can't believe that it also marks 9 years since we first started trying to conceive. I will be so glad to have that part of my life closed.
So its back to the daily grind with SPD at home. We are keeping Laci in daycare on her 4 days a week at this stage as I really can't do much and it wouldn't be fair to keep her at home with me not being able to do much. She is enjoying daycare and gets to burn off all that energy.
Tomorrow is 12 years since Shannon and I had our first kiss and 9 years since we married :) Not sure whether we will do something tomorrow night or wait till weekend. Wow, where has the time gone? I also can't believe that it also marks 9 years since we first started trying to conceive. I will be so glad to have that part of my life closed.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
What else can you throw at me?!
So as of yesterday I am off work because of this stupid SPD that is causing me so much pain. Pain to walk, pain to sit, well just pain all the time :(
I also check my BP twice a day and last night before bed it was up, figured it had been a long day and a bit emotional, so that was probably why. SO this morning I got up and got the gorgeous Laci off to daycare (Shannon out of town for work) when I get back I realise I have a terrible headache, figure a day of rest will help so lay on lounge.. Within an hour head is pounding so took 2 panadiene, an hour later no change..hmm maybe I should check BP again? Yep its even higher.. Not impressed, called ob and spoke to her midwife, she is calling me back but looks like they want me to go in for monitoring, but not drive hmm.. Not an easy one, I live 30 minutes from clinic. She asks 'when is hubby home?' or 'do you have a friend who can drive you in?" of course answers are, hubby is away and we just moved here so have no friends..
Will await decision..
I also check my BP twice a day and last night before bed it was up, figured it had been a long day and a bit emotional, so that was probably why. SO this morning I got up and got the gorgeous Laci off to daycare (Shannon out of town for work) when I get back I realise I have a terrible headache, figure a day of rest will help so lay on lounge.. Within an hour head is pounding so took 2 panadiene, an hour later no change..hmm maybe I should check BP again? Yep its even higher.. Not impressed, called ob and spoke to her midwife, she is calling me back but looks like they want me to go in for monitoring, but not drive hmm.. Not an easy one, I live 30 minutes from clinic. She asks 'when is hubby home?' or 'do you have a friend who can drive you in?" of course answers are, hubby is away and we just moved here so have no friends..
Will await decision..
Saturday, August 9, 2008
I think it's growing
Laci thinks I'm huge already lol
Here is pic from today at almost 16 weeks, so thats 3 weeks since last photo. Do I look pregnant now or still just like I've gained too much weight?
Oh and I also wanted to share another cute pic of my girl we snapped today, she was showing off her new jacket she got from a friend.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Nightmares :(
I have always had vivid dreams when pregnant but boy I hate these nightmares! I think I am starting to get more anxious than I am allowing myself to acknowledge about all this pregnancy stuff. Last night was nightmare number 3 in about a week, all involving the death of either a baby or last night, my gorgeous Laci :( I woke up in such a state and still feel yuck. Just writing this brings back a heartsinking feeling so I will stop now..
So my pelvis in a word is crap. I am in constant pain, getting up from sitting is the worst but the only pain free position is laying on my side with pillow between my knees. The school has agreed to temporarily work out of a ground floor office so that will help a little, but in all honesty I don't know how much longer I will last at work.
Shannon goes away alot for work next week, only here for two days, so I am sure next week will feel long.
Bubby boy is really moving now, I can't believe I can even see my belly move now!
So today is Friday, otherwise known as (if you ask Laci) 'girly day' so I better get to organising some girly fun! She has her heart set on fingernail and toenail painting after I got mine done on Monday, not sure how that will go as I don't think she realises that you have to stay still lol
So my pelvis in a word is crap. I am in constant pain, getting up from sitting is the worst but the only pain free position is laying on my side with pillow between my knees. The school has agreed to temporarily work out of a ground floor office so that will help a little, but in all honesty I don't know how much longer I will last at work.
Shannon goes away alot for work next week, only here for two days, so I am sure next week will feel long.
Bubby boy is really moving now, I can't believe I can even see my belly move now!
So today is Friday, otherwise known as (if you ask Laci) 'girly day' so I better get to organising some girly fun! She has her heart set on fingernail and toenail painting after I got mine done on Monday, not sure how that will go as I don't think she realises that you have to stay still lol
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Are you serious!!??
15 weeks pregnant and I have symphysis pubis dysfunction again (SPD)! The pain is not good. Went and saw my ob yesterday, she did a quick scan to check on bub and cervix and all was good there, bub measuring up to a week ahead! So as suspected it is SPD again. Non too impressed, it didn't start till about 19 weeks with Laci but by 28 weeks I could hardly walk, just shuffle and the pain was terrible.
I am home today from work resting and waiting for physio to open to see when I can get in. We have some decisions to make about work and $$. Not easy at all considering I have only been at my new job for like 5 weeks. Shannon is stressed about it all which isn't helping either. My job involves a long drive up very winding range and then when I am there lots of stairs including 2 big flights just to get to my office and the stairs back and forth to toilet and stairs are the worst. Ob is happy tfor my to leave work now and said will fill out any necessary forms..
Not sure what we will do..
I am home today from work resting and waiting for physio to open to see when I can get in. We have some decisions to make about work and $$. Not easy at all considering I have only been at my new job for like 5 weeks. Shannon is stressed about it all which isn't helping either. My job involves a long drive up very winding range and then when I am there lots of stairs including 2 big flights just to get to my office and the stairs back and forth to toilet and stairs are the worst. Ob is happy tfor my to leave work now and said will fill out any necessary forms..
Not sure what we will do..
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
Final CVS results
So I just got the call form Mater Mothers to say that the final results are in and definately no chromosome problems with our bub and yes stil definately a boy lol.
I am starting to get some low pelvis pain, for my last two pregnancies I had symphysis pubis dysfunction and in fact with Laci was in alot of pain and could only shuffle walk from about 28 weeks. Trying not to think about it all just yet especially as my job has lots of stairs even to go the toilet and where we are living at the moment have 2 flights of stairs to get in..
Guessing I will deal with it when the time comes.
Today is as Laci puts it our 'girly day', the day when we just stay home together. I really enjoy fridays, our day to reconnect with each other and gets lots of chatter, kisses and cuddles in.
So better get back to it :)
I am starting to get some low pelvis pain, for my last two pregnancies I had symphysis pubis dysfunction and in fact with Laci was in alot of pain and could only shuffle walk from about 28 weeks. Trying not to think about it all just yet especially as my job has lots of stairs even to go the toilet and where we are living at the moment have 2 flights of stairs to get in..
Guessing I will deal with it when the time comes.
Today is as Laci puts it our 'girly day', the day when we just stay home together. I really enjoy fridays, our day to reconnect with each other and gets lots of chatter, kisses and cuddles in.
So better get back to it :)
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